Green eyes

It's hard to understand, that someone will never return to your life, perhaps "nevers" doesn't really exist. One day you wake up with a feeling of loneliness and melancholy. For a moment, someone who you didn't even remember gets in your mind... When we come down, we return to past. Sometimes we chain to that memories, derpiving ourself to taste and feel our future, we keep on remembering the magic moments, adding more magic than it really has..and you feel like if everything reminds you of him, of those green eyes. We think, imagine, dreamed plans, perfect travels, moments worthy of the best love movies. But they are just that, they don't go any far, they don't even seem to be real,not anymore. They are only thoughts that chain us much more to something that is not anymore with you. But we have to learn how to survive with that feeling. Close doors, go ahead, come what may.. but keep on walking on your way. Even if it hurts. Sometimes we think that leaving something behind us that filled us with euphoria hurts even more than having it.
We touch the bottom and we know we can't leave it even knowing it hurts.. we get scared. But however we get a better reward, like smile for yourself, learn to be alone, or let go everything that doesn't deserve you, is inexplicable.
One day you wake up knowing that whatever happens, you are not part of that past that for a long time, kept you smiling...